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THE
STEPS OF A.A. - AN INTERPRETATION
Written
by Clarence H. Snyder, January 1972
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Alcoholics
Anonymous is not a booze cure or a psychological means of
controlling one's excessive or obsessive drinking. A.A. is a program, a
life changing program, and, in a great part, we owe our inception as a
fellowship to our origin in the Oxford Group movement during the mid
1930's.
The
Oxford Group was designed as a Life Changing program- and we in A.A.
have for our own uses and affiliation, modified their program, chiefly
by designing our twelve step program in a manner that the alcoholic who
feels he needs and wants a change from what they are experiencing, can
comfortably accept and apply the program and thereby change their life.
To
do so, requires certain attitudes, willingness, and acts on our parts.
We
have simplified the program, in the feeling that any alcoholic with an
alcohol problem, can live a life free of the obsession to drink.
Our
program of the twelve steps is really accepted in four distinct phases,
as follows:
1)
Need (admission)
2)
Surrender (submission)
3)
Restitution
4)
Construction and Maintenance
Phase
#1 - Is covered in Step 1- We admitted we were powerless over
alcohol, that our lives had become unmanageable - this step points
out phase 1- or our own need - there is a needfor a change!
Phase
#2 - Includes the 2nd through the 7th steps which constitutes the phase
of submission.
Step#2
- We came to believe that a power greater than ourselves could
restore us to sanity. Since we could not manage our own lives, of
ourselves, we found ourselves to be powerless over alcohol, we were
encouraged by the power of example of someone or some others to believe
that a power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity. In this
step, we have the proof
of the pudding before we are asked to eat it!! Others tell us of
their experiences and share their deepest feelings with us and those
members are alcoholics such as we are, and there they stand, sober,
clean-eyed, useful, confident and with a certain radiance we envy and
really want for ourselves. So, we WANT to believe it! Of
course, some persons could conceivably be a bit more startled at first
by the reference to being restored to sanity, but most of us
finally conclude that in hearing of some of the experiences our new
friends had during their drinking careers were anything but the actions
of a rational person, and when we reflect upon our own actions and deeds
prior to our own introduction to A.A., it is not difficult to recognize
that we too, were pretty well out in left field also! In fact, most of
us are happy in the feeling that we were not really responsible for many
of our past unpleasant and embarrassing situations and frankly, this
step does much to relieve our feelings of guilt and self-condemnation.
Step
#3 - We made a decision to turn our will and our lives
over to the care of God...
Now
here is the step which separates the men from the boys (or the women
from the girls) - this is the step which tells the story as to whether
we are going to be in A.A., or around A.A.
Yes, we can attend meetings, visit the clubs, attend the social
functions, but, unless we really take step #3, we are continuing to make
up our own program. Since our entire program is based upon dependence
upon God and our lives are to be directed by Him! So, here we are,
making a decision, which in itself is quite an
accomplishment for the alcoholic, since they are one of the most
indecisive creatures in society, due to their incapacity to manage their
own life due to their obsession- But- to make a decision to turn our
life and our will over to the care of God- this creature in the far blue
yonder, whom we have little acquaintance with and probably much fear of,
this is really asking very, very much of an alcoholic! Rest assured,
that if they are not ready, if they have not reached their
bottom or extremity, and if they are not really
hurting more than they ever have, they are not about to take
step #3. So - they go pretty much on their own as usual, except that
they do have the advantage of better company than they had been
associating with and this in time, could really foul up any type of
drinking life they may have in the future! Another important feature
enters here, in that they know now that there is a way out
of their dilemma and this is bound to work on them as time
goes on, if they have
any pride at all in themselves! At this point - their biggest problem is
to overcome FEAR and Let go and let God. Step
#4 - Made a searching and fearless Moral inventory
of ourselves. This is
a step which should be taken with the assistance of a sponsor, or
counselor who is well experienced in this changed life - due to the
capacity of the alcoholic to find justification for
about anything - a sponsor can bring up through sharing - many
various moral weaknesses which need attention in their life and can
smooth the way for the alcoholic to examine them in a frank
fashion. The next step suggests that someone is helping with step #4 -
since it reads as follows:
Step
#5 - Admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human
being, the exact NATURE of our wrongs.
We
put ourselves on record and leave no options nor reservations! Note that
it states, NATURE of our wrongs- not the wrongs
themselves! We are not required to narrate details of our
many indiscretions. Many of them we don't even remember, nor are
conscious of. This is not a laundry for dirty linen, this is recognition
of character defects which need elimination or adjustments!
Step
#6 - Were entirely ready to have God remove ALL
these defects of character.
This
step allows for no reservations. The alcoholic, being an extremist must
go the whole route. We are not a bit ready, or about to be ready, but entirely
ready to have God, not us, remove ALL these
defects of character, (the interesting ones as well as the more damnable
ones!).
Step
#7 - Humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings.
We
tried to make no deal, as we did in the past when situations would
overwhelm us. It was common to say- Dear God, get me out of this
mess and I will be a good boy (or girl), I will not do thus and such,
etc., etc., etc.,... NONE OF THAT! We humbly asked Him to remove
our shortcomings. The Good Book assures us that anything we ask
believing, we shall receive!
Step
#8 - Begins our phase #3- that of restitution. So now we have admission
in Step #1, Submission, Steps #2 through #7. Now for the Restitution in
Steps #8 and #9.
Step
#8 - Made a list of all persons we had harmed and became
willing t o make amends to them all Steps 8 and 9
should also be taken with the assistance of a knowledgeable sponsor or
a counselor, since in our present state of impatience with almost
complete lack of judgment, we could conceivably cause much harm in
executing this phase of the program.
Most
of us probably have persons on that list whom we just do not want to
have any contact with. The step states plainly - ALL persons
we had harmed! Obviously some of these persons
are not available, having passed on, or disappeared etc., so we
must ask God to handle those details. But step #9 states - Made
direct amends Whenever Possible except when to do so would
injure them or others. We cannot and should not try to clear our
slate or conscience at the expense of any others. This phase is very
important and it eliminates the possibility of
carrying over some details into our new life that could
consciously come back to haunt or harm us in our new life. We are going
into a new life, and we should Let the dead bury the dead.
Now
that we have taken 9 steps !!! We have concluded 3 phases of our
program. These 9 steps we have accomplished - so - FORGET THEM!!! They
have required action and you have taken the action, so there is no need of repeating it! There
are only two occasions when one must refer back to the first nine steps,
#1- is in the event that the person resigns and resumes, obviously
they must start all over again! The other occasion when we may refer to
the first nine steps is when we are trying to explain them to a new
member and helping them with them. So, now we have our last phase, that
of Construction - Steps 10-11- and 12. With these steps,
we construct our life, these are our living steps. We no longer must be
concerned with 12 steps- ONLY 3 STEPS!! How simple, how wonderful!!
Step
#10 - Continued to take personal inventory, and when
we were wrong, promptly admitted it.
This
step has absolutely no connection with step #4. Note, in step #4, it
calls for a searching and fearless Moral inventory. This
step calls for a personal inventory. This step is our
daily check on ourselves. This is our check on the small and large and
otherwise details of my life TODAY. My simple way of
handling step 10 may help someone, since I find that it is most adequate
for me, and I prefer to keep things simple and uncomplicated. At night,
after I am in bed, my day is over; I find this is one of my most
important prayer times. I think about my day, what have I done, whom I
have been with, what has transpired.
Sometimes I find that I am not proud of something I have done
today, and I owe someone an apology, I do not permit these things to go
unattended. I have found that it is not the so-called big
things which seriously affect the alcoholic in their new life, but the
little things. They can go on and on and add up and become a
real burden and eventually have drastic effects
upon our new life. This is the reason for step 10, keep things
cleaned up, keep the walk swept! Maintain a good healthy
attitude.
Step
#11 - Sought through Prayer and Meditation, to improve our
conscious contact with God, praying only for knowledge of
His will for us and the power to carry that out.
This is a great step, first, because it brings us into a prayer
life. Back in step #3, we made a decision to turn our life and will over
to the care of God. In step #11, we receive our orders!!
Let
us break this step down and discover how it is both simple and profound.
We are seeking something, seeking to improve our conscious contact with
God. What does that mean? To me it means He is not in the far blue
yonder, beyond reach, but right here, close where I can talk to Him and
listen to Him (the Bible states that He is closer than hands and feet,
and that is most
close!). So, I am seeking to make this contact through Prayer and
Meditation. What does this mean? To me, Prayer is talking to God, and
Meditation is listening to Him! The good
Lord endowed us with one mouth and two ears, which should suggest
something to us!! We are enjoined- Be Still - and that is
how we should be while listening! The answers surely will come
if we but listen. Now, the step tells us what to pray for.
Only for knowledge of His will for us and the power to
carry that out. Since we submitted ourselves and turned our will
and life over to the care of God in phase #2- now we ask for His
orders and strength to carry them out. We are promised that He
will never expect anything from us that He won't give us the power to
execute. Now then, do you see any place in the step thus far to
suggest we pray for sobriety? Of course not, and it is absolutely
unnecessary - you HAVE sobriety. Thank Him for it - but it
is pointless to pray for what you already have The 11th step states very
plainly how to pray and what to pray for!!
Step
#12 - We have experienced 11 steps and something has happened to us. In
fact, something happened at the end of step 9! Step 12 states very
plainly - Having had a Spiritual
Experience as the result of these steps, we tried
to carry this message to other Alcoholics and to practice these
principles in ALL of our affairs.
What
is a Spiritual Experience? That is the changed life we have been
referring to. That is the change that comes to a person who has turned
their will over to the care of God and continues to try and improve
themselves, mentally, morally and spiritually. It states that we try to
carry this message (not the alcoholic) to alcoholics. We practice these
principles of love and service in all our affairs. Not just in A.A.
meetings and associations, at home, at business, everywhere! What a
blessing this fellowship is. What a great opportunity to love and be
loved. Why cheat yourself? We have the prescription, the means of
getting well, staying well, growing and best of all, SERVING.
Come on in, the water's fine!! Friends are wonderful, the fellowship
is distinct and GOD IS GREAT!!
[This
was transcribed from Clarence's handwritten copy.]
MARSHALL
K
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